I hate waking up, and having you as the first thought in my mind. We have no future together. I’m not in love with you, that I know for sure. But I’ve grown an attachment to you, and in the future when it is time for you to leave and go back to your own country, it’s going to hurt me. A lot.
I realized this when you told me your plans for after graduation to get a job working in a factory instead of using your major to work. I realized I cared a lot about you when I want so much more for you than you want for yourself.
Nonetheless, it isn’t my life and you should be free to make your own decisions. I just wish you leaving wasn’t one of them..nor throwing your education away.
What’s the point of getting close to you if you are just going to leave me in the end?